Perspective.

Sometimes one image can have a huge impact on your perspective of life. 

This i found today. I do not have a TV, and do not search for worldly news on the web. This is the super typhoon that headed for the philippines on November the 7th. Yesterday i was told my student finance award notice was sent to me on the 7th of November. Which i was impatiently waiting to arrive, now i feel a shift in perspective. Not a 'aha' moment, which Olafur Elaisson tries to achieve in his work, more of a overwhelming, pit of you stomach filling. That fills your whole being, what with? A realization of a force out there bigger that our control. That our brothers and sisters are out in the world fighting and coping with problems bigger that our everyday "Student Loan" worries. What can we do? Should i become more aware of these matters? I am sure they are happening everywhere in the world, right? What can i do? WELL you can be more radiant, more grateful, feel that overwhelming feeling, the feeling i felt when i saw what i did not know was happening in the world, was sickness. Was is sickness at myself? A deep, moving sickness, of disgust that i felt so downtrodden about meaningless matter i face here in the safe haven of Lancashire, England. Secondly i saw the spiral in this image. It moved me. The point in the middle which seems to bubble up, like a button and a spiral jetty rolls out, Then i see i am looking at this image of a spiral. A representation, a disconnection from what it actually is. It is a super typhoon. A colossal Monstrous force in nature that has cause thousands of deaths, and destruction. And i can see its beauty? I find beauty in the cloud formation, this spiral from a satellite view, a safe view, an outsider view looking down. Is that the sick feeling i felt? 

This morning i read an article for my dissertation, Olafur Eliasson, 'Sublime Constructions', written by Harold Fricke. I remember towards the end Eliasson says about "the thin line between the real incident and the representational of it", this is how i feel here, i am looking at this image, a representation of a worldly happening yet i feel nothing of the real image. I am able to disconnect myself from what "IT IS", because i can not feel it? Eliasson compares "traveling by car with a day long walk". "Experiencing the same surroundings on a walk rather than in a car would of course be vastly different, though in the end his suggestion isn't 'whether one perception would be superior to the other, but that i have to realise whether i am always shifting between both poles-the meditated and the immediate nature of surroundings". 

MEDIATED feeling- IMMEDIATE feeling. What is the difference? Is it to be fully immersed in the environment, situation?